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10 October 2010 @ 01:21 pm
I'm very happy right now -- possibly the happiest I've been in a while. I've found someone (or she found me) and I'm aburst with fucking ecstasy. What does one do in a time like this? What can anyone do at a time like this?

I don't know. Dance? Sing? Pray?

Maybe I'll fuck the shit out of her again tonight. heh.
11 January 2010 @ 08:07 am
I'm back home and the heater is broken. I suppose that this is some kinda kharmic vengeance that I'm eating up because I bitched so much about the heat. So, my house is a freezer and the plumbing is probably going to get fucked up from the frozen water.

But I refuse to learn my lesson. Suck it, kharma.

Fortunately, jasper left a space heater for me outside my room. Unfortunately, it's not working as well as I need it to work. It's a good thing I can bundle up and I'm not super cold sensitive.

I should probably be sleeping now but I want to write and I feel that I'm so close to finishing my current mini-project re: 7K. I thought I could get this shit done after writing so much in the hospitals, clinics, embassies and offices that I had to wait in for most of my stay back home. Alas, my thoughts are not coming out how they should and when they should. Oh wells.

So yeah. I'm thinking of modelling my D&D games here like the sessions I had with Manticor. I'm going to stop running weekly sessions (bi-weekly on occasion) and instead set aside about 8-10 hours of hardcore game time. As much as I tried to work on a 4-6 hour game sched, I just wasn't hacking it. I think that my stories are built for long sessions instead of short episodic ones... a flaw on my part that I'm currently unable and unwilling to repair.

But this is getting too cold. Hands are freezing up. Will post more soon... or tomorrow.
Current Music: Substitution - Silversun Pickups
07 January 2010 @ 01:14 am
I just got home from a cafe in Greenbelt 3 - hanging out, catching up with friends is a pastime that I'm definitely going to miss on my plane-trip back... just about as much as playing RPGs with my friends here.

But foremost on my mind was the girl - sometimes, it is so easy for me to develop mini-crushes on people. My eyes kept on reverting to her and I could not keep my thoughts from doing the same thing. I recognize the stupid things that I've done in my interactions but I find myself helpless to stop myself from doing them.

"Besides" I say, "I'm leaving in a few days. What's the point?" My pride is my point. One's self-esteem, one's ego, is something to maintain for the sake of one's sanity. Good things happen to the assertive and such a personality is best cultivated by a healthy respect for one's self.

I don't know. It's so easy to roll over and give excuses nowadays... but I feel that each opportunity lost is a blow to the system.

Or maybe... I shouldn't listen to too much Counting Crows
Current Mood: curiouscurious
Current Music: Butterfly in Reverse - Counting Crows
03 January 2010 @ 01:06 pm
I finally finished it.

I finally helped tell the story that I wanted to, needed to tell. The themes and the conclusions may be grimmer and darker than my usual, but that's just a reflection of what kind of storyteller I've become, for good or ill.

But yeah, "the Wicked Will Burn" is done and Charles is posting part 2 of the chronicle somewhere within the week (because I'm lazy and he wanted the mechanical benefit in-game).

It feels like a burden lifted off of my shoulders, like a cumbersome weight made feather-light and whisked away. It's not that running the game was bad, but GMing 9 to 11 people at the same time was... an interesting experience, to say the least. Seventh Kingdom is similar but different enough that it doesn't count.

I don't think I could do it if (1) any of those people weren't proficient with the rules or playing straightforward characters (on the corollary) or (2) everyone there wasn't a friend of each other. I would like to think that the ultimate goal of everyone having fun, story or not, was accomplished - although that may be more of fulfilled expectations more than exceeding expectations. Perhaps, there was a Me-itch that needed to be scratched... and it got scratched.

But I loved it. Every friggin' minute was like a throwback of simpler, better days when I was far less emotionally convoluted and the world consisted only of me, my friends, my family and my failing grades.

It was great and I'd like to do that again sometime, I thinks.
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Best of You - Foo Fighters
13 October 2009 @ 12:49 am
Feeling like a fat slob right now. I just had a large can of instant mushroom soup all by myself plus a few sticks of cheese and some soda. It doesn't help that I have easy access to a shitload of pastries and bagels where I work.

Yeah. Not feeling like doing anything right now besides listening to the Penny-Arcade/PvP Online + Wil Wheaton D&D Podcast and eating another cheese stick. Guh.

This lack of WoW has created a vacuum that is driving me to play a CRPG... any CRPG. I've got my sights set on Dragon Age, but that's a month away. Right now, I'm thinking of either finding and purchasing Dungeon Siege 2 (recommended by a friend o' mine) or replaying one of the many CRPGs that I have collected through the years (maybe Icewind Dale or IWD2 or Baldur's Gate or something).


I shouldn't even be bored or looking for things to do/read when I have so much stuff I need to write. Damn but I shouldn't have had that much food - heading into a food coma...
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Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Oh Lately It's So Quiet - Ok Go
09 October 2009 @ 03:41 am
Three combats in four hours. Not too shabby.

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Current Music: Murmaider - Dethklok
08 October 2009 @ 03:43 pm
I just talked to my boss at the Cafe regarding my vacation in December and it's not entirely her fault, but she's being a dick about it. Word from the top is to restrict vacations during Christmas season... lame as hell.

Way to go Coffee Mega-Corp.

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Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: Hatredcopter - Dethklok
05 October 2009 @ 12:34 am
Regarding Session 5 of "What Sow the Winter Wind"

In retrospect, I think the game went pretty well despite the lack of combat. I had a combat encounter planned (which didn't happen at all) and I winged a fair amount of it - but there was a lot of progression happening. My players (esp. Melissa/Reka) have been writing a journal of sorts re: the game itself.

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Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Canon in D
28 September 2009 @ 12:08 am
I'm tired.

I've just ran another session of "What Sow the Winter Wind" and I feel like something is missing. I guess I should start planning for my games again but I guess that I might be burning out or something.

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Current Mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
Current Music: New Season - Academy Is
27 September 2009 @ 02:40 am
It could be the alcohol talking, but I think I'm done with WoW for a while. The gap between casual and hardcore cannot be bridged - and it is intentionally so. After all, Blizzard would rather reward the faithful than the part-timers. And why not? It makes sound business sense. My group and I have made a similar decision when faced with certain choices as to the design philosophy of the Seventh Kingdom.

And it is this inability to cross the gap, this uncrossable bridge where skill cannot even trump "gear" (and time) that I draw the line.

I'll see you later, WoW. Probably when I'm sadder and more desperate.

This probably isn't a "rage-quit", but for now, I think I'll coast on by - knowing that I've been beaten by shitty DKs and their "I-win" buttons.

I play a Paladin, so this post probably smacks of sour-grapes.

And it could very well be so.
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Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: Attention - Academy Is